Routine

Well i've been Zumba every day for almost a week now and my various PT exercises. It's a bit weird though because i've realised he more i do Zumba the less i sweat and i don't feel satisfied, i'm still giving it my all and trying harder with the moves but it just doesn't feel the same as it did when i started. I'm considering getting one of those really hard workouts like the insane one or P90 etc, i don't know really all that much about them, does anyone do any work out vids they can suggest?

What made me even ANGRIER is i barely eat all day and restrict at dinner so most days i have max 300-500 cals (and workout!) and i was at 52 kilos (WOOO) then i am yo-yoing from 52.4, 52.9, 53.1 i was getting so so angry!! Then out of the blue i got my period last night, so i'm really hoping that's the reason for the bizarre weight gain. I'm 5 days early so i wasn't expecting it at all.

So, i saw my counselor on Monday, we got into a big discussion about my life goals and potential careers.
I haven't had a goal or even a faint idea of what i want to do with my life, i don't know if i want to work, or want to study.  Actually, i do have ideas but there are too many of them!

It's like i'm at a crossroads, an intersection. I see all these paths (careers) i could go down. Instead of picking one i look down each path and all i see are the hurdles in front of me, like time, costs, people, stress etc. Eventually i realise each path has a shittonne of hurdles and i sit down and don't pick any.
It's really frustrating. I see the hurdles and then think 'Hrm, do i REALLY want to go down that road? I can over come the hurdles if i want to do it enough. But... do i REALLY want to do it?' It makes me rethink wether i have a real interest in those things or if it's just a faint liking in the subject.Anyway, counselor told me to come up with a list of things i enjoy/am good at doing. So here they are.

- IT -
I'm really good with computers, i could build/fix them which is really flexible as you can do that from home and be your own boss.

- Personal Training -
i am passionate about having a good looking body, the course is only a year long it's like 3 grand but in the end you can pick your own hours and own your own business (or work in a gym).

- Nutritionist -
I am obesssed with foods and calorie contents etc. But i know there is a lot more to it than that, like food allergies, stomach diseases, vitamins and minerals etc. And i'm pretty sure it's a 3 year degree.

- Writing -
Ever since grade 5 all my teachers have encouraged me to be a writer as i was always creative in that aspect and had fantastic writing skills (obviously not displayed in this blog lol) More so in creative writing or a journalism aspect. This i can also do from home and in my own time. However you aren't always guaranteed work unless you work for a newspaper and they pick what you have to write.

- Beauty -
All women want to look good. So it will always be a booming industry. A short course on waxing is 900 dollars and then im qualified to charge people 50 bucks for half an hour of waxing their legs. Or 600 for spray tanning  and that only takes 3 hours to become qualified. Or even make up etc. I can do all those things at home, or at their house or in a salon etc.


BUT then yesterday i got offered a retail traineeship, it's not something im passionate about but it's guaranteed work for a year, which is fantastic,  especially while my boy is on shitty apprentice wages for the next 3 years. So i was thinking maybe i go back to study once he's done?

I don't know.. it's all so difficult. Any advice? It would be VERY appreciated.
Thank you :)