It's 10pm and I'm sitting in bed wearing my panda pj's with my tears streaming down my face, sobbing.

It's my 19th birthday tomorrow, nothing special. The two people in the entire world that would subconciously know it will be my birthday and would never miss it aren't here. My poor daddy is up in heaven and I can't hear him wishing me a million happy birthdays, and my mother is in jail for his death probably looking up at the stars wishig me happy birthday and regrettig everything she has done.

Addicted

Thanks for everyones motivating comments!
It's inspired me to take a new perspective on everything.

So I have a bottle of water with me at all times! As soon as I get hungry I just chug that down. I had been stealing a few drags of my bfs smokes everytime I was hungry but after the last week that's been kinda addicting. So, trying to replace that before it gets out of my control.


Does anyone smoke? What are the pros and cons?

Intake so far:

1 slice of toast 80 cal
a shittonne of water!


Let's hope it stays that way for awhile.

Xxx

FAT!

Could someone do me a gigantic favour and tell me to stop EATING!? I'm sick of it, i can't control myself. I'm so revolted and disgusted.

Fried food = biggest weakness. 

It's the worst for you, I need to implement a process in which i do before i decide to gobble up everything in a 5 yard radius.

Maybe I have to count to 10 and drink half a liter of water and have 3 drags of a cigarette?

I don't know.

Help me. 

I want to be so tiny i could float away...